a delayed post..

其實是早好幾天前就想ｐｏ東西,,,
無奈...我不懂為什麼blogger在清晨時分總是十分的緩慢...
不然就是東西load不上去...

anyway..it's a post on 09/feb/2007
and i decide that if they contiune this bad service..
i'll move my blog to other places..
cos i got too many thoughts to express..

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it's hard to explain what happened in these few days....
but u can always guess it's about the applications
and that kind of things...

anyway,,,I didn't
send the application for Arts Administration of NYU..
after back to Taiwan..
counsellor wanna me to asked for a special extetion..
they said okay and i have to deliver it before friday...

but guess what...
it's friday today?!
it's not done yet..
and i kno it won't meet the 2nd dealine again...

quite complex but the ture reason is
I'm not sure if I wanna get into this program or not..
so i didn't write it at all.....

maybe some pl will say that I'm always too emotional or something..
(I can guess their looks and thoughts)

whatever...
in my opinion,I can't persuade myself to do something
I'm not sure about or can't figure out clearly...

so...the solutions are
1.asked for a more few days and complete it asap.
2.try to figure out and give up this program at NYU

what matter is..
I've sent one application to NYU for Music Business
which is the one and only I wanna get into..

is it so important for me to send another application
to the same place and apply for something
that i'm not sure?

quite down and stressful...
feeling that i'm pushing to do something I dun like..

either i'll be accepted or not..
it's not my first choice and I might not go..

why there's always no room for me to slow down
and tring to thinking more comprehesively?

it's about Chinese New Year and I'm so dying
for a real relife and break....

the trip to singapore is a turly torture..
it not only exhausting but dissapointing...

the worst is.....there's no money left.....

When I read Bible on wed,,,
I found out a sentence which is so beautiful..

"For God is not a God of disorder but of peace"

will God draw me back to him and forgive
every silly things i've done?

will God bring peace and love back to my life?

I deeply prayed for a turly well-ognizied life
and the calmness of wit for my crazy life.....

BTW,,i got scolded again by my father.....
which is so normal and consquent that i even
forgot to mention it...ha...

there's something weird happened also in these days..
couldn't tell it and i think it'll testify in the following days..

I hope that God's willing to listen what I said and will say.

the one thing I believe is God is faithful..
上帝不會耍我的,對吧！