friendship or relationship?

我看見他的MSN暱稱裡寫著

"山無稜 江水為竭
東雷震震 夏雨雪
天地合 乃敢與君絕"

心裡酸酸的 其實我們已經沒有聯絡很久了
前一陣子 出國前 他有跟我聯繫
講了些近況 還有一些我們之間的問題

我推說 我要到開學前才會回台灣了
因為我不想 也無法面對他
想到他 心裡只有難過 還有心疼
更多的 也許是氣他真的不了解真心關心他的人
全然都是為了他好

我不知道他怎麼想 其實我非常難過我們的友情
似乎已經不復存在

而這個鴻溝 我不知道何時才能補上
或許 永遠回不了以前?

yes,
if u know whom i'm talking about
he's the guy who drives the white BMW
and grew up with me together.

i almost wanna block him coz i can't handle
that i always saw this absurd sentences showing
on his condition.

he told me that his family was bankrupt lately
and he has taken the responsibilities for a while.
he's too prideful to ask me how i got thru it
when the same things happened in my family many years ago.
i dun dare to say that now he knos what i felt then.

i feel so upset and sorry.
but not for him but his dad and mom.
coz i know them so well and
they treated me like a real daughter.
i won't say that i'm happy,
but i do hope it would teach him a lesson.

some ppl said that i didn't try enough to
tell him back to NTU and complete the degree.
some ppl asked why i just let him go and never
cared about him amymore.

he chose to betray us and walked alone.
i'm the last one leaving him till i got so many hurts.
i'm the last one who trying to get him back.
but,ignorance is what he got.

how one can be so arrogant and still think he's different?
how one can be so blind that
can't tell the reality and dreams?
try to challenge it if u are really good enough.
or is it so hard to being normal?

feel the pangs of heart to tell that we're separate too far
and there's no chance to get it back.

高中時代的意氣風發已不復存在
取代他的只有落水狗般的形象
以及引人發笑的幼稚與無能

我不想這麼說他 可是
兩個人之間的不同 已經在選擇人生道路上
分 道 揚 鑣