another wednesday..

it's wed again..
it's a special day coz i got up early than before..
ha...
does that mean
i'm getting into the right track of life again?

actually i was lil sleepless last nite.
reeeeally tried hard to make myself
calm down and read lots material of the holy bible..
and i found out that it's quite a good way
to write down every sentences which moved me..
so this morning i got a whole four pages of notes
hmmmm....it helped me to cilled a lil..

tho it's still over-crowded day today..
homework..application..tutors..
shop a new flute for me student..
i think i will try my best to deal with everything...

it's not good to be upset all the time,right?

besides of those tiny things in daily life...
i'm kind of scary about the result of any skols...
i heard couple of ppl got the letter from NYU...
there are two ppl were accepted...
(but not from my college)
and others got something like offcial forms...
they couldn't figure out what's that,either.
quite weird about the situation of NYU...

BUT....
unfortunately.....
I DID NOT RECEIVE ANYTHING!

is that no news is good news?
waiting is the most most torturing thing in this world.
i'm starting to plan this whole new year out
if i didn't get any acceptance from US/UK.

no matter i'll get the reply or not..
the real life must and have to go on...
i'll do lots of things to enrich myself
and try to make more money(hahaha)
the most important thing - thesis....
it's still waiting for me to complete.

there's an old friend asked me
to go to Bali with them..
i think it's quite a good way
to make myself have a lil break.
but but..
i'm still thinking about it anyway...

gotta go and have a tutor on 2...
later i'll post something
i wrote last nite which really show
how helpless i was...