another stay-up day!

very very sleepy and
have to finish the work before noon today.

got a complete blank head and got no special
ideas to write down anything new in my paper.

i think the paper will turn out a shit!

did i deserve it or just i didn't work hard enough?

everything's moving forward in a crazy speed
and i hardly catch up with it.
everyday's stuff with works and books and courses
and the bloody and shameful business from my family.
almost got no time to review what i learned or did.
it's totally a tragedy.

keep being pushing ahead and feeling more and more uncertainty.

fed up!

kinda fed up wid the endless routine!
kinda fed up wid the constant annoying works from NTU!

i need more space for being myself!
i need more time for studying my own stuff!
i need more freedom to tidy up everything!

there's never a day for resting enough
and there's no time to think comprehensively!

i'm not the superwoman and i only got 24 hours a day.
i need entertainments and a real relief!
i'm not the machine for producing more!

is it a drawback that u're good at working?
is it a disadvantage that u're thoughtful and
u carry out everything perfectly?

i'd rather say i wanna be a moderate one.
then i probably wouldn't and won't be so exhausted!

maybe i'm a work-maniac but i still have to sleep!

i need to be the ture and whole ME!
i'm gonna losing myself if i keep being so tame!

is it so hard to put aside everything
and get a real rest for ONE day?

the answer is positively YES!!??

The POST?!

today(technically it's yesterday) i saw a post
in front of the entrace of our building,
which says

9/15.16課程照常進行,請同學多利用大眾交通工具,
衣著避免紅.綠色,以防止不必要之困擾與衝突!

hahaha...what a ridiculous post and how true it is.
it's really a torture to go to THE area around the
office of President and taipei main station everyday.
i have to go there 4-5 days a week and you can't imegine that
how horrible and time-consuming it is.

have to keep away from the NTU hospital station and get off
the MRT in next station.
(i used to take bus or my scooter there so i hate this)
(moreover,when the protest move to the taipei main station
from 9/15-10/4..haha...which stop can i drop off?)
have to wait the bus for almost 30 mins to come coz all bus
all take a more far courses.
(so it's always always after 11pm when i finally get home)
can't drive pass the roundabout of jing fu men when i gotta
drive to the taipei main station from NTU.
(it's okay but it's always jammed in the Roosevelt road.)

all the disamenities are bearable but i hate them bringing
such a scary and terrifying atmoshpere into our society.
you dun have to watch TV for getting news coz all news are about
THIS protest and nobody cares about other things.
even those ppl waorking for mass media.

i'm waiting to see the crash of pan-green against the shin's crowds
who may meet on 9/16.
hahaha....try to fight to dead and the world will be still anyway.
nothing will change but wasting you morons energy!!!

even if the president chen deposed by those stipid heads
the whole society won't be better coz
there are always those idiot ppl who make our life disturbing.

ppl who easily mobilize are blind to the reality.
ppl who gather there always blame others.
ppl who're back shin up got are those ppl abusinging the freedom
which the old green party fighted for us painstakingly.

we're not like those undeveloped counties which need violence.
we're not in the fear of not being allowed to say,to act,
or to write.
this protest drives us communalized and i dun kno why those
ppl sitting there still think it's a good idea.

try to be fair and compare the achivements of green and blue.
maybe some may say blue is far more good at ruling ppl.
but dun forget they also put more than tens hundred million
dollors into their own pockets.

it's eventually about the notion of being dependant or back to china.
we're too different to become one if you understand the real condition
of THE mainland and their ppl.
dun just talk about those very rich ppl in china.
try to compare the whole customs,thoughts,and behavious
of these two lands and normal citizens!

we can become a union which will help us become
the economic autherity around the world.
it still takes time and i wonder ppl will care about the issue.

i'm not the green member
but i do think the real democracy must not like this.

if there a violent thing happened in the taipei city
it will set off a specila security system
then we can't dirve into the downtown.
the nine bridges connecting taipei city and county will be blocked.
the highway toward south taiwan will blocked
if there's worst situation.
and the taipei city will be isolated till it's clear.

what about us who only wanna have a peaceful life?
do those ppl sitting there ever thought about others?

are we already in a WAR?
or some people flame it deliberately?

it's very very pathetic and absurd!

great result!

Milan vs AEK = 3:0

what a wonderful result and what a marvellous game.
i always hope that i was there!
the second goal was passed by my favorite former cap.
Paolo Maldini.
he's still so calm and never gives up any chance to win.

it's such a long time not seeing him this year.
and it's maybe the last season for him to stay at AC Milan.
he probably won't join the UEFA EURO 2008 which
i'm trying so hard to get there.

anyway,i think i'll follow every matches this season
and won't miss any chance to see him playing on the feild.

the next game of UEFA 2006/2007 will be held on 9/27
wed am 2:45 by taiwan time against Lille.
espn won't have a session for them.
so it's time to go to the bar.
GOGOGO!!!!!!

Matchday One

Matchday 1 - 12 September 2006 - Match kick-offs
Group A-D

Matchday 1 - 13 September 2006 - Match kick-offs
Group E-H

all in 20:45 CET Time,which means plus 6 hrs equal to ours.
maybe not every match will be broadcasted.
starts a new session going to the pub!

UEFA Champions League 2006/2007

Group A
Levski
Chelsea
Bremen
Barcelona

Group B
Spartak Moskva
Sporting
Internazionale
Bayern

Group C
Liverpool
Galatasaray
Bordeaux
PSV

Group D
Shakhtar
Olympiacos
Valencia
Roma

Group E
Real Madrid
Dynamo Kyiv
Steaua
Lyon

Group F
Benfica
Man. United
Celtic
København

Group G
Arsenal
Porto
CSKA Moskva
Hamburg

Group H
AEK(Greece)
Anderlecht(German)
Lille(France)
Milan(Italy)


Group A非常歡樂,希望他們趕快廝殺完畢,
或許會減少我們晉級之後遇到的對手?!
Group F也是個絕妙,平平都是在大英帝國的互殺,
不過這場衛視偏心的會轉播,哎!
我們的H組,不知道狀況會如何,從晉級打來的一個位子
千萬要好好保住呀!

these days。

這幾天,忙。

是那種忙碌有餘思考不足的日子,
說好要好好想想的,
但是總是被每天每天的schedule推著往前跑,
我搞不懂人生幹嗎這麼累,
想過一個星期的清靜生活都不行,

覺得異常的沮喪,
不是因為功課,不是因為GRE,
不是因為學校,不是因為出國唸書,
不是因為異國戀情,
我想這些我都克服了,
事情總會好好的進行下去,

但是我異常的想念Roger,
睡覺前,起床後,通車時,上課時,
我不懂為什麼我會對他執念那麼深,
也許他真的對我太好,
也許他真的在我心中有不可動搖的地位,
也許我真的後悔當初愚蠢的甩掉他,
畢竟我那時候並不是真的喜歡上別人,
我笨到,連愛跟喜歡都分不清,
他也寬容到,還願意接受那個回頭的我,

5.6年了,都還忘不掉嗎?
心中老是想著what if XXX,what if OOO,
時間過了太久,大家也都各自交了男女朋友,
大家也都經歷過和不同人的分合,
我懷疑,有那麼一天,我們會重新開始講話,
我們會重新開始連絡,

因為明明兩個人就是那麼近的距離,
他在線上,我也在線上,
他不曾大刀闊斧的封鎖我,
我,卻提不起勇氣跟他說聲哈囉,

其實,或許是去年兩個人的一時錯亂,
才造成今日這種尷尬的景況,
今年他生日,我依然沒有勇氣跟他說生日快樂,

不知道是愚蠢還是樂觀,
我希望在明後年我出國前,我們可以重新合好,
就像朋友般的見面聊天,
雖然他已經知道他對我來說有多重要,
但是我還是想再告訴他,曾經跟他在一起有多好.

不想後悔的人生,卻老是出現後悔的場景,
渴望伴侶的生活,卻老是枯寂的可憐!