累。

對每件事情有衝勁
對每件事情保持正面的態度
把所有該做的事情作好 甚至是讓它完美
兼顧生活品質

這樣的一段日子 對我來說有點累

我到底在等些什麼？

最近常在想
為什麼我老是想著要逃開
為什麼我老是想著要放一個大假
為什麼我會覺得生活如此的厭煩
為什麼我不能習慣一種朝九晚五的生活

是所謂好聽的“太喜歡自由“
還是只是一種社會不適應症狀？

如果不滿意 那又為什麼沒有勇氣去衝破它
然後 總是整天覺得煩 覺得累
硬是強迫自己去符合這樣的社會價值觀

最後 傷的只是自己 還有那越來越薄弱的勇氣

現在無法說什麼我要奮起這種話
很想努力向前衝
但是目前只能龜速的向前爬

好累
想要去到一個什麼人什麼事都不存在的地方
放下一切
僅僅只是面對所謂"活著“的這個問題

recent days..

恩 最近還滿忙的
就覺得有點累了吧

很多事情如潮水一般的湧來
然後我就拼命的 在急湧的浪花中向前

同時 我在尋找一個新的生命秩序
很努力的 想把所有的事情就緒
家裡的 生活的 工作的 還有生命的

每天強迫自己一定要完成列表上未完成的事項
有點變態的感覺 但是我想我一定要這樣做才行
真的每天都在跟自己打仗
所以 很難理會別人在幹嘛
我想好好的把自己活出來 至於其他不值得費心的事情
我就把它放下了

國科會的計畫 突然又說要急著交件了
於是乎 我就嚇得魂不守舍
有點煩 可是我也拿了錢 所以還是要認真做完

一連參加了兩場婚禮之後 我想我有點痲痹了
在便利商店居然還看到什麼2007婚禮大全的書
於是 我講了一句 現在流行結婚是不是
我妹說 幹嘛生氣阿

我沒生氣耶 我只是還無法了解這種真諦吧
我只想先一個人好好的漫步在這個寂寞的城市裡

還不足的自己 浪費上帝給我的才能的自己
現在這個時候 就是該好好溫習一下了
我有要再度進修的打算 好好的把自己推向一個不可能
別人看起來覺得有些荒謬或是愚蠢
但是 那又如何
因為我知道自己太過於安逸在同一種生活步調中了

過去這幾週 很感謝上帝給我很多機會
跟許多很熟的 準備變很熟的 半生不熟 的朋友
聚餐 或是出來晃晃的機會
真的很棒 有時候跟人相處的感覺
也不是太糟糕嘛

我想 我也同時審視了自己 以及我的處事原則
很多時候 我覺得我更加學會了善待自己
還有我所重視的朋友

很努力之後 就是一場大感冒
星期二好不容易有休息的一天
龜縮不去看醫生的後果 就是等著病自己慢慢消失

我總算有個光明正大的藉口說
我要待在家裡休息

外務 遊樂
抱歉 現在無法接聽電話囉！

hot hot hot summer!

after being XX crazy busying for a while..
I think it's about the time to do the right business
and find the perfect order from God.

as some of you know, I was stuck by Eddie for a quite ironic week
have to rest for almost 3 days to chill out..
as always..it's complicated and full of happiness and sadness..
in this short moment of his coming,
I had the chance to meet another reporter from some media..
hmm...anyway he's quite cute
and we talked a lot about many artists and other stuff..

after Eddie back to HK, I got a chance to teach in a new place
and I think it's great coz I've beening concering nothing to do in summer for a while..
but this new job means more students and more works in the coming days..
anyway,,reality is reality..money is just money and I need it :P

I'm not telling that I don't like to be with those kids
or give lessons...
teaching in music class always remind me
how much I love music and how much I want to be more perfessional..

almost nothing special in the last week
besides I got some very very great afternoons and nights with my friends..
and finally i had the time to shop some things i want for a long time..

in the past month,,
i think the thing really shocked me is that
the news someone is going to moving to taipei
and where he lives SUPER near where i lives...
so i life a messeage as follow..
drop by and visit me when you available..
hmm... it's not just the meaning you're reading..
if you know what i'm talking about..

anyway..in the one life time,
there's always onething you'll never forget..
i guess he's the one i'll keep in my heart forever..
but i won't let myself drawn in this kind of thing right now...
just hope that he's fine in my city...

it's a bright firday so it's perfect to be the point
of starting a new life and order...

ciao!